WHY

In December 2025, I hit rock bottom. Not just mentally, but physically too. One morning, I woke up and something inexplicable had thrown me off balance. LITERALLY!!

Everything was spinning and I felt sick. My vision was blurry and I was walking like I was drunk. It was impossible for me to go to work.
I took sick leave and struggled for a few weeks with the question of what the hell I was doing. My suicidal thoughts were more frequent and stronger than before. I found no joy or meaning in anything. The shame and frustration were palpable.

This page is a must. Or part of a must. I simply have to turn around and make the lifestyle changes necessary to function and live on. I have to find joy and meaning again. But… why a website and a blog? It’s simply a way for me to focus and sort things out. And to put a little pressure on myself.