The beginning of what needs to be done.

Feeling mentally unwell is nothing new to me, as I have had periods where I have felt quite bad. Periods where I have distanced myself from the outside world and felt increasingly worse.
I usually visualize it as digging a hole that I later jump into. Sometimes I have dug really deep, while other times I haven’t managed to dig as deep before I rot and stop digging.

A few times I have turned to healthcare for help, which always ends with me leaving and continuing on my own. They immediately want to put me on medication, which I am fundamentally against. I advocate for conversations and deeper analyses, treatments, and approaches. I don’t want to suppress the symptoms; I want to investigate and treat the underlying cause.

A couple of years ago, when I was depressed, I had an assessment done. An assessment that I don’t fully agree with, as there were shortcomings in how it was carried out. I was diagnosed with ADD with recurrent depression. I can agree with a lot of it, but some things are missing.
This time, too, they wanted to immediately put me on medication, while my suggestions were rejected.

Since I know myself so well, I know what I need to do to turn things around. Diet is incredibly important. I cannot stress this enough. INCREDIBLY IMPORTANT! But… the healthcare system does not recognize my diet and does not allow me to work according to this approach. This means that I will never get anywhere this way and have to turn to private healthcare, which is often expensive. Of course, it must be worth it.

Since the healthcare system does not recognize the diet, you also have the general public, the masses, and your loved ones against you, which in my case has major consequences. I feel incredibly lonely in all of this, which is depressing in itself. I have to try to find ways around that.
I think it would be enough to find a partner who is on the same track. Someone you can find support and encouragement in. Someone to fight alongside. Someone who understands.

As you can see, there is a lot to tackle, but the diet and the diagnosis are not everything. But… it’s a start.